I will never be a lot of things. It’s the things that I strive to be that nibble at me bit by bit and smoosh my dreams and break them, like a mirror shattered into millions of tiny pieces. I try so hard to be someone I’m not, and I never focus on who I am. For who He made me to be. I look out on the ocean of potential, never taking action or doing something to rid me of my sorrow. I sink into my own ocean of self pity and stay there looking out on what would’ve been or what could be. I strive with all my might to reach the impossible and be perfect.
I’m a Christian, so I should be right?
Everyday I would imagine The Father shaking His head at me for sinning and screwing up. And, in a way, I’m right. The Father does shake His head; but for the complete opposite reason. He shakes His head in sorrow, saying, “Oh, my daughter, you don’t have to be perfect for Me, or anyone.”
“For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.”
– Ephesians 2:8-9
Your relationship (not religion) with the Creator of the Universe is built upon love. And Christ’s love says,”You are free, you shouldn’t sin, but you will. I will always forgive you and I don’t expect you to be perfect because you have fallen.”
For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, so that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.
– John 3:16
We put ourselves through so much heck trying to please ourselves, and others to look perfect on the outside, but on the inside we are sad and lonely, broken and frustrated with ourselves, always wanted to be better than we really are and trying to make ourselves feel better so we can feel perfect.
FYI: We never will be until we meet our maker.
My whole life, I’ve missed the whole message. I will mess up, but that’s already been paid, forgiven, and redeemed. That is why he are Christ followers, isn’t it? Life without our God is hopeless, lifeless, sorrowful,
We can’t be perfect for lots of reasons, but I’ll only list two.
1. We lose the greatness of Christ’s sacrifice on the cross.
If we were perfect, Christ’s gift on the cross is worthless and has no meaning. We only look at how good we’ve done and that we don’t need the incredible all-knowing God to save us out of our sin.
2. We just can’t
Because of the first sin on earth made by Adam and Eve, all humans are sinners and all fall short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23).
I will never be a lot of things. And I suppose it’s a good thing I will never be perfect. I would rather sin everyday than be perfect and spend an eternity away from my loving Heavenly Father.
Another discovery in an over sized lime green moon chair. 😀
Much love,
Emily 🙂
